[sand is overrated]
i've been so lonely for so long that i don't even know it when i get real love. maybe it's because i look in the wrong places -- and by that i do not mean the conventional chicken noodle soup for the soul wisdom. i mean, how often have i looked at the people right next to me? those i share everything with? I start to wonder: how often have i judged them on previous experiences? on my own, unrelated to them, for that matter? how come i won't let my friends show me real, real love -- when they could?
i've been so lonely for so long that it appears this has been my first entry in a month or so. i'm so alone that making my zine happen has been a hardship, everything in the past seems easier and I know I KNOW that in reality its not true. I'll look back on today and you know what?
I'll want it back.
I'll always want it back.
but i see that now.
[just a bunch of tiny little rocks]